I'm in a state of confusion!.....

I had two computers....a desktop (the big one) and a laptop. My big one crashed last night so all I have is my laptop. I do most of my work on the big one. (my baby) It has Windows (XP) and Linux (Ubuntu) installed on it. I do most of my work on Ubuntu as I like it better and XP keeps crashing....It gets jambed and when I try to end the program I get an error message ....something about Internet Explorer.
So now to work on my blog; I open it on the laptop. I don't have it on my "favorites list" as of yet...so I have to search. I have this new tool bar "Internet Explorer provided by Yahoo! "which I hate; so I use Google; hidden in the corner up on the right. Google can't find my blog site. Funny because it is a Google account. Apparently Google searches everything but Google. So I finally get to my blog and it looks plain to me...I want it fancier. I still haven't figured out how to use all the little details yet; and now I want to play with more complicated details. Well I feel like an old tee shirt hung out to dry...upside down. Let's see what happens.
I still have not settled on the direction of my blog. I think I need some more definition here. Let's see; let's see.